Every moment that you spend now looking inward opens up new roads in front of you. The block releasing has not finished on a cellular level yet as you are constantly letting go the load you carry in your soul and spirit. Yes, it never ends because if change ended, the world would end as well. Change is eternal, so recognition and awakening to consciousness is eternal too. If you go through it suffering and chasing the desired state of pure bright and perfect consciousness, then your existence will befull of tension and dissatisfaction.
“When will it be over?”- You are asking. It will never, never end; nothing ends as all is infinite.
The only thing you can do is change your perception on how you live the change, starting with the your lack of self-acceptance, self-reproach and impatience with your unceasing question about when youwill finally become “clean”.
Or – you live awakened accepting and making the most of the events which look like suffering.
Accept that all is good the way it exists in this world -all of it, even the things you are fighting against and which you feel are unfair. Sometimes we are in deep discontentment. We are dissatisfied with the world, with how others have treated us, with our government or neighbors.
Are you disgruntled with something?
As soon as you accept yourself, accept your life the way it is, the world will become a more reasonable place.
The destroying power behind our persistent will for changekills the enjoyment of life.
If you exist in full acceptance, then living the change helps you gain first hand experiences and observations which are real, and above all, fulfilling.
And believe: it will take you to the same destination only on a different route.One is the road of pain and suffering, the other is the path of conscious existence and creation.
Seemingly, the only thing that makes sense for the rational mind is to try to make changes in you and in the world. This is the biggest illusion, the wailing of maya the mantle which covers it all.
The wailingis not the world, not the matter that surrounds you, but the way you perceive it.
Look inside and all will shine behind the visible.
I know you are asking now ‘how could I possibly accept this or that atrocity or horrible thing?’. That is the point: all these horrors are mirrors; you think they are outside but they exist within. All of them. Face it, and find them within: sometimes you are evil, impetuous, you could even kill or take what others have, if these bother you in the outside world.
It is time to have a look deep within- that is the message of the Neptune. This helps you in starting to make the changes symbolized by the moon’s focal point.
You can leave suffering if you choose acceptance.
The mystic union, the all is One, the message of the Neptune starts within you. Do you fully accept yourself? Are you in total harmony with yourself? Do you have the Union within?